So I am done with all my AP exams, and I’ve decided that from now until the end of the school year, I will be super productive. There’s not much school left and even though class is a bit more chill now, I can’t let myself slop through the rest of the quarter like I’ve been slopping through the first half of it. For the next month I will work hard, you know, just put in all the energy I have left into this school year, and then come summer I’ll decide what to do with my life from there.
Someone described physics as being the “drunk science” because even when you try to understand it you just freaking can’t and that’s just the most accurate description of anything ever
But rly i’m crying rn how do you physics
HOly shit that was the most horrible argument essay I’ve written yet
AND I’VE WRITTEN A LOT OF BAD ARGUMENT ESSAYS
ohmy god WHY
I need to own like a study room, where it’s just white walls and nothing but a desk and a chair and I can just sit there with my hair pulled back and study without getting distracted by literally every single thing ogmfomdfomgjflksd; klfghj
I had a conversation with my mom today about cutting and depression and things of that sort. It’s a kind of topic I don’t really like talking about, since many are sensitive to it, but I think about it a lot.
i’m actually such a horrible student and this is horrible
i need to actually 1.) stop procrastinating (i’m being dead serious right now) 2.) stop putting things off (ESPECIALLY STUDYING) for last minute 3.) STOP PROCrASTINATING 4.) stop like pretending assignments i don’t like don’t exist until the night before it’s due and 5.) start using my time more wisely like actually doing work or studying in class doN’T PROCRASTINATE. serious don’t kid yourself, you won’t have time to do it later
this is a serious issue guys i’m trying to fix myself
there’s a quarter left of school and i’m literally so done and i need to not be done yet because i still have freaking exams to take goddammit
and i’m like failing math right now and i don’t even have an ounce of care left which is so not good
will always look
Catching up with old friends always feels really good ^^
Something inside of me believes in happy endings a lot more than I should. And I don’t just believe in them. I look to them for support; I will depend on anything that can prove to me that something as fairy-tale as a ‘happily ever after’ can possibly exist. And I collect these evidences, from story to story, movie to book to any other medium in which I can vicariously experience these perfect endings. And when I say perfect, I mean perfect. Everything should be as it should be, the good should have defeated the bad, everyone in love should be with each other and all loose ends should be tied and knotted. I relish these happy endings. And when one thing goes wrong, any one end is left hanging, it will bother me. It will bother me for days. It is kind of sad, my inability to handle imperfect story endings. I would blame it on all the fairy tales of my childhood, but I don’t really feel they are at fault on this one. I just have this intrinsic optimism, one that shouldn’t really be there at all but somehow still convinces me every time that endings are meant to be happy.
But I mean, I know that that is not true. Obviously. I’ve been around long enough to know that even when things don’t end well, they end with purpose. That’s what I rely on when I can’t rely on happy endings—meaningful endings. But I guess part of me still takes a while to accept endings that aren’t fairy-tale right, and that’s the naive part of me who watches too much romcoms and stuff.
only in dramas will someone ever wait for a person for three hours in the freezing cold
only in dramas
like seriously wHO WOULD DO THAT