On struggling with being darker skinned black,
"… And my mother again would say to me, "You can’t eat beauty. It doesn’t feed you." And these words plagued and bothered me; I didn’t really understand them until finally I realized that beauty was not a thing that I could acquire or consume, it was something that I just had to be.
And what my mother meant when she said you can’t eat beauty, was that you can’t rely on how you look to sustain you. What is fundamentally beautiful is compassion for yourself and for those around you. That kind of beauty enflames the heart and enchants the soul.”
- Lupita Nyong’o
If ur feeling small today I dare you to sit up straighter, look someone who scares u directly in the eye, take up room at the dinner table, make yourself bigger, when ‘sorry’ laps at the back of your tongue, tries to pick up after you, remind yourself that your existence doesn’t demand an apology, that you are allowed to make mess and take up space, do not be afraid to expand. Every single goddamn minute. Expand, expand, expand
i needed this today
humans are so cute, when we say goodbye we put our arms around each other and to show we love someone we bring them flowers. we say hello by holding each other’s hand, and sometimes tiny little dewdrops form in our eyes. for pleasure we listen to arrangements of sounds, press our lips together, smoke dried leaves, get drunk off of old fruit. we’re all just little animals, falling in love and having breakfast beneath billions of stars
Things are okay. I just feel inadequate today. I’m allowed to, aren’t I? Who says that everyone has to go around feeling like they’ve inhaled the sun and should spend the rest of their lives exhaling its brilliance into every encountered darkness? Who dictates that? Let me be myself, today, in all my mediocrity. Afford me that little bit of dignity.
field trip today:
ew. except that one moment we were in a line next to a bunch of british tourists and i liked listening to them talk
literally the best part of my day
I wouldn’t be so bothered by what you’re saying if it weren’t all so true. It’s funny because it’s the same things I tell myself all the time.
I’m still working on it.
Sometimes I want to rip out the roots of what makes me who I am and change the foundation of myself.